I am becoming more aware of my body, parts of it and areas where I am not relaxed. I am paying more attention to my walking and movement. Even during the program I began waking up in the morning without an alarm (something that hasn’t happened for about 40 years) and wake up more relaxed
But I am aware that I still have a long way to go before I can feel my muscles and know how to consciously relax them. You gave us excellent instructions on the program and I realize that for certain things, everyone has to figure it out on their own and find some other help.
This program of yours is a great investment. It's true that I'm taking it all in little by little, and every now and then a tear of sadness and pain, which has been accumulating in me for years, would come out. I feel that there will be a long way to improve, but I am trying and doing exercises more or less daily.
I decided to enroll in the 30-day program because I believed that this approach will help motivate me in performing AEQ exercises more regularly. When I performed them on my own, I spent most of my time just reading. And then, I tried to perform the exercise. When reading, I tried to memorize as much as possible, so that I can then perform the exercise without stopping, which distracted me from sensing my body.
Even when I was reading your book, which was gifted to me for Christmas, I knew this was a very serious matter. However, with your introductory lecture my trust in you grew even more, which is reflected every day, especially during exercises. Your leadership is convincing, your answers mathematically accurate.
Chronic muscle tension serves to suppress the perception of unwanted and dangerous impulses from the body. Their expression to the environment through movements, speech, gaze, posture is limited.
https://youtu.be/ZVLmbd0gILU HOW CAN I HELP MYSELF?
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The most obvious change was the clarity of my thoughts when I first sat down in front of my computer to begin working. They were ordered in a neat row. This surprised me, because I had this constant feeling for a whole year now, that I don’t know where to begin and was doing 5 things at a time and never finished them. I was postponing them, wrote post-it notes for the next day, and then the day after…
Ever since I joined the workshop, for the first time after 5 or 6 years, I no longer feel excruciating pain in my entire back and should when I play the violin. I can now actually play the entire, very demanding, 15-minute composition and not feel tired afterwards. I no longer suffer from blockages especially in my left shoulder or forearm (left and right hands), sometimes my lower back hurts a little, but not all the time.
