The AEQ Breathing program, followed by the Emotional Maturity Elevation program, were my second and third programs. In the first one, I mostly cried. I didn’t even know why, nor did I relive much. I knew I had a lot buried inside, and following Aleš’s advice, I signed up for these two additional programs. I admit, I often asked myself what the point of all this was.

But soon, I found plenty of reasons. And I also received very important explanations—of events, feelings, and reactions. All the explanations I heard during the programs illuminated accompanying sensations and helped me direct my focus properly. If I didn’t understand something well, I asked by email and received responses that helped me understand and also encouraged me along the way.

Already during the program, I started closing off projects that were consuming my time and energy but going nowhere despite all the effort. After the last program ended, things began to open up. In the month that followed, I mostly focused on finishing things. First, the projects that burdened me, and now also around the apartment. With each completion, I make an effort to find inner satisfaction and enjoy it, and I am thrilled to notice that this satisfaction is no longer conditioned by my parents’ approval, as it always used to be. As if this truly belongs to me now.

I’ve started getting to know and building relationships with new people—ones I wouldn’t have before. I’m often amazed at how differently I now notice and perceive relationships in my family and among others. Sometimes I’m stunned by how differently people treat me and how much more positive my family’s attitude toward me has become.

I’ve become more spontaneous. I’ve made more decisions in the moment when the opportunity appeared, acted without planning—and they worked out! I never would have done this before.

The programs had a major impact on my sleep. I still wake up at night, but now I sleep uncovered without fear—there are no more monsters under my bed. I don’t dream much yet, but I guess that’s still to come.

Physically, I feel the biggest difference in the front part of my torso. I had an extremely strong amnesia there—above the diaphragm, I hardly felt anything. No internal pain, and even my skin felt nearly numb. Now I’ve begun to feel muscle contractions, and the sensation on my skin is gradually increasing. I used to constantly have muscle spasms in this area, which I could clearly see but couldn’t feel. Now that has calmed down. I feel the contractions, and the spasms have greatly reduced—the last ones were even painful. This means the amnesia is significantly decreasing.

It feels like my perception and experience of life have flipped like night and day. I hope not too quickly.

Participating regularly in the programs was very demanding, as they heavily impacted my schedule. I must admit I was relieved when we finished, and for a while I didn’t do any exercises. I went on vacation and mostly rested—that was something new for me. (By the way: what do you do when you rest?)

When I decided to return to the exercises, I fell asleep smoothly while doing them.

I will continue doing the exercises and keep working on changing my subconscious. I’ve spent so long working on myself without results that now, when things are finally starting to improve, I’ll definitely persist.

Warm regards,

Urška