Hello Aleš,

The experience in the program was very intense and still has an impact. Initially, I joined so that I could practice AEQ exercises with guidance every day, since I already knew their power, but I found it extremely challenging to do them on my own. The theme of the relationship with the child also seemed interesting and appropriate to me, as I had been working on my relationship with my parents for a while. Additionally, my partner and I were planning a family, and just before the program began, we received confirmation that I was pregnant. So, I started the program with the intention to primarily address subconscious patterns related to my parents, which I did not want to pass on to my daughter.

I had already completed the Program for Regulating the Relationship with Parents and the AEQ Level 1 Teacher Training. So I was familiar with your approach and the context of most explanations, and I had already taken many steps to gradually and persistently work on the most important relationships in my life—or at least to begin addressing them. Still, the first exercises in the program were challenging for me, even though we were barely moving. That’s how I knew they were working—my body began to show tensions that had been there all along, but I hadn’t noticed them before because I hadn’t felt my whole body well enough.

Your explanations before and after the exercises or breathing protocols were interesting and just the right depth for me. I couldn’t help but take notes, even though you suggested we avoid it, since we would hear what we needed in that moment and too much written information could lead to overthinking and distract us from taking action. Therefore, especially in the second half of the program, I made it a point to have a conversation almost every day that moved one of my important relationships forward. In the last two weeks of the program, I spent a lot of time with my parents and had some very difficult but necessary conversations about my chronic childhood illnesses, how I see our current dynamics, and where I would like to see changes—and why.

During that time, I unfortunately had a miscarriage, which shook me physically and emotionally. At first, only my partner knew, and I thought I didn’t want to worry my parents unnecessarily with the news, especially since they didn’t even know I had been pregnant. I was also afraid that their reaction might shake me even more. I took a few days for myself to at least begin to recover. In the meantime, I realized that this is an important part of life and that I wasn’t doing anyone a favor by hiding it, so I told my parents. That conversation was also emotionally charged, but I felt strong enough to carry it through without breaking down—even though their initial reaction wasn’t what I would have wished for, at least not on my conscious level. A few days later, they expressed the compassion I had been hoping for and quietly asking for all along.

During the program, I learned how to approach difficult but necessary conversations, about persistence even when facing initial resistance, and about the importance of being aware of my past and understanding the types of relationships my ancestors had. It became clear to me how important it is to direct most of my energy toward my present and future—that is, my partner and our future family. In doing so, I can gradually break the pattern I inherited from my parents, who, as adults, were overly involved with their own parents—beyond the limits of necessary occasional help. I know that without concrete changes, their chronic issues and illnesses await me, and my future children will inherit my past.

Thank you for your knowledge, guidance, and explanations. Because of them, I am gradually making changes in my life that once seemed impossible. Of course, I would wish for faster progress, but now I know that rushing won’t gain me anything in the long run.

Kind regards,