Hello Aleš,

The experience in the program was very intense and still has an impact. Initially, I joined it to be able to do AEQ exercises guided on a daily basis, as I was already aware of their power, but found it extremely challenging to practice them alone. I was also drawn to the theme of the relationship with one’s child, since I had been working on my relationship with my parents for quite some time, and my partner and I were planning to start a family. Just before the start of the program, we received confirmation that I was pregnant. So I entered the program with the intention to primarily address subconscious patterns with my parents, which I didn’t want to carry into the future with my daughter.

I had already completed the Program for Regulating the Relationship with Parents and the AEQ Method Level 1 Teacher Training. So I was familiar with your approach and the context of most explanations, and I had already taken a number of actions to gradually but persistently improve the relationships most important to me—or at least had begun doing so. Still, even the first exercises in the program were demanding, even though we were barely moving. That’s how I knew they were working—my body began showing tensions that had already been there, but I hadn’t noticed them until then because I hadn’t been feeling my whole body well enough.

Your explanations before and after the exercises or breathing protocols were interesting and just deep enough. I couldn’t help taking notes, even though you suggested we don’t, since we will hear what we need in the moment, and too much information—especially written down—can lead to rumination and distract us from taking action. That’s why, especially in the second half of the program, I made sure to have almost daily conversations that moved one of my important relationships forward. In the last two weeks of the program, I spent a lot of time with my parents and had some very difficult but necessary conversations about my chronic illnesses in childhood, how I now see our dynamics, and where I’d like to see change and why.

During that time, I unfortunately experienced a miscarriage, which was physically and emotionally very intense. At first, only my partner knew, and I thought I didn’t want to burden my parents with this news, especially since they didn’t even know I was pregnant. I was also afraid their reaction would upset me even more. I took a few days to myself to gather my strength. In that time, I realized that this is an important part of life and that hiding it doesn’t help anyone, so I told my parents. That conversation was emotionally charged as well, but I felt strong enough to go through it without breaking down—even though their initial reaction wasn’t what I would have wished for, at least not on my conscious level. A few days later, they expressed the compassion I had been hoping for and quietly asking for all along.

During the program, I learned how to approach difficult but necessary conversations, about persistence even in the face of resistance, about the importance of being aware of my past, and about understanding what kinds of relationships my ancestors had. I realized how essential it is to direct most of my energy into my present and future—my partner and future family—and gradually break the pattern I inherited from my parents, who, as adults, overly focused on their own parents beyond the boundaries of occasional needed support. I know that without concrete change, I’ll face their chronic issues and illnesses, and my future children will inherit my past.

Thank you for your knowledge, guidance, and explanations. Because of them, I am gradually making changes in my life that once seemed impossible. Of course, I’d like to progress faster, but now I know that rushing doesn’t bring lasting results.

Warm regards