Even though 7 years have passed since my first visit to you, I became aware of many undiscovered things about myself with the intensive program of 60 days of breathing.
I became aware that the right side of my body was completely contracted, that my right leg did not feel well, and that I was bothered by leaning to the right.
I found out that I can’t do the half-moon because my back and stomach are completely rigid, and when performing the exercise, I feel like a robot. I don’t know what I have to do, what to relax to improve my movement.
I became aware that I wasn’t an orderly person, and that I don’t like to speak numbers in a one-second tempo, but instead want to set my own.
You also showed me that counting while in a good mood suits me best. I feel as if I could go on forever; I still have air and strength. I can’t do it in anger, where I become completely numb.
You showed me how module 6 suits me, how it makes me feel happy, and reassures me that I can show and tell the world what I want.
Now I understand my development, especially in 2014, when big changes began in me. From childhood, high school, college, young wife, and mother, there was a state I did not understand. I understood that I was looking but couldn’t find happiness.
Since 2014, when I felt that life was giving me a new opportunity since I started to experience knowledge from my first visit to you, I changed my attitude towards myself and my surroundings. But of course, it’s a process. A lot of self-analysis, a lot of analysis of the surroundings.
I observe my children, how they communicate in anger and during play, and think to myself how I could even raise my kids, how to teach them to be happy and how to maintain order within themselves and in their surroundings, if I were incapable of doing so.
In the intense 60-day breathing program I diagnosed the largest spasm ever – in my right shoulder blade muscles and signed up for the next program.
An intensive program at a specific time each day allowed me to adapt my days to new activities in my family and work. Listening to answers to questions and explanations allows me to repeat my thoughts and analyze them in depth.
The intensive program allows me to observe a certain constant in life and to consciously focus on the body and explore myself despite the struggle of the subconscious.
I consciously reserve an hour of time in my day, consciously dedicate these approx. 7 euros for my soma.
I still have a lot of time and attention ahead of me, which I intend to devote to understanding myself and my surroundings to achieve an honest relationship.